I'm am SOOOO bummed out. This morning while putting on my makeup, I was going over in my head all that I need to do today. I'm flying solo this week, as the daughter is with her dad and my wifey is with her family in Texas. Okay, so, as I'm going over what I need to do, I realized, since I am working overtime every day this week, how am I gonna get from work to the meeting AND let our dogs out? The poor little guys will have been in their crates since 6:15 this morning. IF I go to the meeting, even to weigh in, our dogs will be in a pool of pee and poop. Just can't do that to them. Soooo, I weighed in this morning and for the first time in 2 months, I didn't loose a thing. I was reallllyyyyy bummed about that too. WTF? How did that happen? Well, my mind started going over the past week. 2 Christmas dinners, almost NO fruit & veggies, and I haven't worked out in 4 days. Yup, that'll do it. The working out has been killing me, but again, working over time, by the time I walk in the door, take care of the Schnauzer's, feed myself it's usually 7pm and I'm plumb tuckered out!
I'll be sooo glad when my wifey is home and things go back to normal. It's amazing how when your spouse/partner is away, you realize how MUCH they contribute to the day to day things in your life. I'm having to do all the little things she does plus all my things. That being said, I'm just too wiped out to workout. I'm off tomorrow and my plan is, to do TWO workouts. Jump roping in the morning and treadmill in the evening.
I'll be SO glad for Sunday to be here and life to be as it was. I'll be flying solo for New Years' Eve and Day. I'm finding that planning ahead and journaling really DOES help. I've already tracked out a chili recipe for New Year's Eve and Day. I'm making it with turkey, again, it's all about the choices. I am treating myself to a few beers, since I've basically cut out alcohol. I'm gonna workout ALOT this 4 day weekend and stick to my plan. I'm not going to allow the fact that I didn't loose weight, to depress me into over eating. Nope, not gonna happen. I have to look at the POSITIVE. This is the FIRST holiday season in 5 years that I did NOT gain weight, but rather, LOST weight. That in itself is a HUGE victory. I'm exercising now and becoming far more active than I have in years. These are big changes and I'm very proud of them. I need to focus on the positive things in my life. I'm not focusing on negative thoughts, people or obstacles anymore. I refuse to give them any power over my mind.
This year has been amazing and the changes I've made are powerful ones. I look at ALL that I've accomplished this year and it's mind blowing. I married the love of my life, in front of family and friends. We had a very lovely evening and it went just as I planned it, perfect. We honeymooned in DISNEY WORLD, my most favorite place on earth. We were able to bring my 2 daughters, ages 21 & 15 with us and my mom, sister and niece met us there. We stayed in the most luxurious resort and enjoyed a week of first class amenities, it was magical! My son came home from Afghanistan and was able to attend our wedding. After our trip, I decided to join Weight Watchers, and this process is really life transforming for me. I'm slowly regaining my confidence back. I'm seeing the hard work paying off. I finally got in some jeans I haven't' worn in a year and it feels GREAT! I spent the day after Christmas with ALL my children, which was the best gift ever. We were able to take not one but TWO weekend getaways, both to the Biltmore to see friends. We also got away with my parents and THAT is always a blast.
Looking back it was a tremendous year for us. We are so fortunate and we try very hard to never take that for granted. My life before I met my wife was full of struggles and hurts. Her life was basically the same...until we met each other. All the pieces just fit and literally everything we have touched, has turned to gold for us. That is all the confirmation we need to know we have found our destiny. I don't believe in luck, I believe you make your own luck, with your choices. Choosing her and our life together has been THE best decision I've ever made,hands down. With her by my side, I can achieve so much more, than if I were alone.
I look forward to 2011 and all the challenges and adventures that it will bring us. My desire is that this time next year, I'll have an amazing story to tell. I wish you all, happiness, health and SUCCESS in all that you do. Everything starts with a dream, but to make that dream come true, you MUST have action. The time for wishing for a better life is over, MAKE it happen. Only you control your destiny, don't leave it up to circumstances...you be in control of YOU!